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Gay Role Model
02:59
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If I knew you in high school I would have been cooler than I am today
Spent a long time feeling like a total fake
Every time we talk I know I’m better than I was before
In the park or lying on your floor
For all the blues that they put you through
You are not to blame
But for now, I’m calling out your name
‘Cause you are my gay role model
Gay role model
And you’re a superstar
Yeah, you are my gay role model
Gay role model
And you’re a superstar
What a little looker! You are beautiful in every way
Even when you know you’re not OK
If you ran for office, I would vote for you without a doubt
Queering up the Senate and the House
For all the blues that they put you through
You are not to blame
But for now, I’m calling out your name
‘Cause you are my gay role model
Gay role model
And you’re a superstar
Yeah, you are my gay role model
Gay role model
And you’re a superstar
Role model, gay role model
Gay role model, gay role model
Role model, gay role model
Gay role model, gay role model
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2. |
Human Life
03:50
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Human life has no meaning
But the meaning in between
What you know and what you’re too scared to concede
Every day brings a challenge
Much too heavy for us to bear
But from the cosmic point of view it’s thin as air
Running out the clock on the insulin shock
If you know what I mean
With a target on your back it’s a panic attack
You know, you don’t know
Human life has no meaning
Oh, oh
Human life has no meaning
Oh, oh
Still, we find it in each other every day
In the car on the freeway
You are leaving without a scene
When you wake up will it all have been a dream?
Looking up out the window
Just as far as the eye can see
There is life inside the greenery
There is death behind the scenery
There’s a thousand million stars and more to see
Running out the clock on the insulin shock
If you know what I mean
With a target on your back it’s a panic attack
You know, you don’t know
Human life has no meaning
Oh, oh
Human life has no meaning
Oh, oh
Still, we find it in each other every day
Human life has no meaning
Oh, oh
Human life has no meaning
Oh, oh
Human life has no meaning
Oh, oh
Human life has no meaning
Oh, oh
Human life
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I cannot shake the thought
We’d be better off
If it never even happened
Still I am filled
With the same reaction
Why did it happen?
Why did it happen?
It almost didn’t happen, oh
I was just a kid when it all went down
I didn’t even know my own name
I know it’s no excuse, I don’t need one anyway
I wonder where you are in this big world
Do you think about it all the time?
No matter what you said I’d assume that it would be a lie
Yeah, it feels kind of weird
That we would not be here
If it hadn’t ever happened
Still I am filled
With the same reaction
Why did it happen?
Why did it happen?
It almost didn’t happen, oh
I wonder where you are on this big Earth
Lying in your car or on the dirt
Waiting for the day you can say it doesn’t even hurt
Truly I’d testify
That I would not survive
If it hadn’t ever happened
Still I am filled
With the same reaction
Wondering why did it happen
I’d testify
That I would not survive
If it hadn’t ever happened
Still I am filled
With the same reaction
Why did it happen?
Why did it happen?
Why did it happen?
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4. |
Man in a Dress
03:32
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In the shower I feel so alive
Under the water my body will follow my mind
In the 80s our silence was death
Now, we can wed, but we’re holding our breath for our lives
Is there such thing as a man in a dress
Who looks amazing if under duress?
When will you let him express
What he knows to be true?
It’s nothing to do with you
In the evening I miss you the most
Now that it’s cold I pretend that I’m holding you close
Can’t believe just how many have died
Only for loving and dressing the way that they liked
Is there such thing as a man in a dress
Who looks amazing if under duress?
When will you let him express
What he knows to be true?
It’s nothing to do with you
Now more than ever, our history’s alive
Past and the present in one big gay eye
All that we do is to honor your great sacrifice
Is there such thing as a man in a dress?
Is there such thing as a man in a dress?
Is there such thing?
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5. |
Real Women
04:21
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We will find a cause to castigate
The little things that threw me to the ground
Evil often fills me up with hate
Living things will always let you down
But out there on the street
I will suffer, I will bleed
I will sing, and if I have to, I will scream
That real, real women got bits and pieces
That you won’t find talking to your cousins and nieces
Yeah, real real women
Some have pieces of you
I said that real, real women got lots of problems
Without all the shit that you’ve been putting on them
Yeah, real real women
Got problems that are different from you
We all find it hard to concentrate
That luxury won’t always be around
People trying to communicate
The feelings that they hid and never found
But out there on the street
They will cower at your feet
You must tell them what had once been told to me
That real, real women got bits and pieces
That you won’t find talking to your cousins and nieces
Yeah, real real women
Some have pieces of you
I said that real, real women got lots of problems
Without all the shit that you’ve been putting on them
Yeah, real real women
Got problems that are different from you
Real, real women got
Yeah, real, real women got
Real, real women got problems that are different from you
Real, real women got
Yeah, real, real women got
Real, real women got problems that are different from you
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6. |
Consciousness
04:05
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We are cursed with consciousness
The universe wants us to believe
In the significance of all that we conceive
Wondering why, why we are
Haunted by the life we’ve never found
And the demons living in our parents’ house
Sometimes I feel like someone else
Like a body on the couch
Like a face without a mouth
And when I feel like someone else
I get to thinking
What is this life we lead and
What does it mean?
I did not choose to be here
And I will not choose to leave
When I leave
Everything will slip away
Dampening the pleasure and the pain
Like the pitter-patter of the falling rain
One thing I can guarantee
Kids will cry and parents disagree
Oh, the fundamental selfishness of being
Sometimes I feel like someone else
Like a body on the couch
Like a face without a mouth
And when I feel like someone else
I get to thinking
What is this life we lead and
What does it mean?
I did not choose to be here
And I will not choose to leave
When I leave
What is this life?
What does it mean?
What is this life?
What does it mean?
I did not choose to be here
And I will not choose to leave
When I leave
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7. |
Lonely Starbucks Lovers
03:22
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When I'm on the Internet
Looking for a fight
Doesn’t matter if I’m right
When I’m on my phone again
Coveting a dress
I don’t care who I impress
We all know my life’s a mess
When McDonald’s tweets you back
But the way they speak, it always seems to leave you lacking
When you write yourself a song
At least the lonely Starbucks lovers sing along
Drinking too much alcohol
Makes me feel depressed
I don’t like it, I confess
Smoking anything at all
Makes me lose myself
So keep it on the bathroom shelf
If you care at all about my health
When Chipotle tweets you back
But the way they speak, it always seems to leave you lacking
When you write yourself a song
At least the lonely Starbucks lovers sing along
Don’t believe your disease
Don’t believe your disease
You are more than what you eat
You are more than that
When your mom won’t call you back
And the way she speaks, it always seems to leave you lacking
When you write yourself a song
At least the lonely Starbucks lovers sing along
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8. |
I Said Hey
03:01
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I woke up this morning with a song in my heart
But when I sat down to write it I’d forgotten the parts
So I said hey
I said hey
Last night you were drunk and you forgot my name
So you drank a little more until your Uber came
And I said hey
I said hey
I tried to forget what you told me
It didn’t really work that well
When you said that I sound like the old me
I fell, I fell
These days things are going pretty good
All the stuff I want to do is the stuff I should
So I say hey
I say hey
I tried to forget what you told me
It didn’t really work that well
When you said that I sound like the old me
I fell, I fell
Yeah I fell, I fell
Someday the world will fade to black
You’ll muster up the energy for one last gasp
You’ll say hey
You’ll say hey
Your funeral I’m sure will be a big affair
But eventually the world will forget to care
They’ll say hey
They’ll say hey
They’ll say hey
They’ll say hey
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9. |
So Long to Boys
03:24
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Spent the last ten weeks or so
Living off wine and oreos
Real cheap beer and shitty solo shows
Never had a lot to say
Went and said it anyway
Thirteen dead, we danced the night away
We were all just having fun
Dodging cops and pointing guns
Playing pool and singing “Born to Run”
But every action has a price
And no one place will feel just right
Four straight boys will never change your life
But hold on
One day we will build a home
And say so long to boys
Hold on
I still dream of cobblestones
And an old farm, Illinois
We were just a neighborhood
Did the best, the best we could
Now it’s so long for good
So long to boys
So long to boys
So long to boys
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10. |
A Layer of Topsoil
04:18
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Some days, things fall in place
Leaving us room to breathe
But these days require a faith
In things I no longer believe
Should you feel lost and forgotten
In search of something new
Think of the poem I hold in my hand
One thing that I know to be true
In spite of our knowledge and all of our shame
There’s one simple fact that stays hard to explain
We owe all our pleasure and all of our pain
To a layer of topsoil and the fact it rains
One day we’ll be erased
No one will know we lived
But today I cherish your face
And everything you have to give
Should you feel torn and uncertain
Like meaning is a lie
Think of the evening, the stars in the sky
The sun when you open your eyes
In spite of our glamor and all of our fame
There’s one simple fact that stays hard to explain
We owe all our pleasure and all of our pain
To a layer of topsoil and the fact it rains
Should you feel lost in the fray
Then may this song guide your way
For all of our wonder and all of our fame
For all we’ve preserved and for all that we’ve changed
We owe every verse and every refrain
To a layer of topsoil and the fact that it rains
To a layer of topsoil and the fact that it rains
Just one layer of topsoil and the fact it rains
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Hard Femme Chicago, Illinois
Soft queer pop with a hint of existential crisis
Band photo by Liz Barr www.instagram.com/lizbarrrr/
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